"Thank you"

Abyss

He who gazes long into the abyss does not find that the abyss gazes back into him.
He finds that he is the abyss and the only abyss he can gaze into is the abyss of self.

The Question

The Question

My spirit is a stranger in a foreign land
wide eyed and bemused by linear time
in a galaxy in a grain of sand
tracing echoes of the divine

My soul in reconnaissance scouts the terrain
it's been around and here it comes around again
moving like a wheel within a wheel
capturing images of the surreal

My mind conceded long ago
at the foot of a mountain
I named - 'Things I cannot know'
on an outcrop I scrawled this graffiti -
'The answer is a question'

My heart is a boy lost in a wood
he thinks it's because he wasn't good
at first distracted in his play
until longer shadows strike his day
he begins to feel hungry lost alone
he cries out-"Father find me and take me home"

My body is my dwelling and my cell
too sinful for heaven too wounded for hell
a little lower than an angel
a little higher than a beast
an ebullience of life soon to be deceased

Sometimes
you think you have everything
and you have nothing

Sometimes
you think you have nothing
and you have the whole world at your fingertips

Sometimes
you get clean away
only to turn around turn around again
like a moth to the flame

Will tomorrow bring an answer
to yesterday's dilemma
the picture's not worth watching
I can't move the antenna
I'm in a dream state
paralysed but wide awake
and in this dream within a dream
events are not what they seem
walking on the mountain
drinking from the fountain
asking the question
receiving the answer
creates another question
why am I told
things I cannot hold
sitting up in my bed
I clasp my hands for molten lead

Such spiritual wickedness
in such high places
camouflaged by airs and graces
the pseudo-socio religious farce
in Sunday best and washed arse
and all the learning
and all the knowledge
and all the posturing
of science and art
have never and can never
wash one human heart

And my own heart is just as dark
and just as ready to kill
and less delusion and less pretence
will not make it white as snow
my knees may kneel upon the ground
but it's upon the mass graves below.

I wrote this a few years ago and decided to repost it.

Amanda Thatcher

"Let me tell you a story"

"There was a king who decided to settle his accounts with his servants. When he had started calling in his accounts, a man was brought to him who owed him millions of pounds. And when it was plain that he had no means of repaying the debt, his master gave orders for him to be sold as a slave, and his wife and children and all his possessions as well, and the money to be paid over. At this the servant fell on his knees before his master, ‘Oh, be patient with me!’ he cried, ‘and I will pay you back every penny!’ Then his master was moved with pity for him, set him free and cancelled his debt.

“But when this same servant had left his master’s presence, he found one of his fellow-servants who owed him a few pounds. He grabbed him and seized him by the throat, crying, ‘Pay up what you owe me!’ At this his fellow-servant fell down at his feet, and implored him, ‘Oh, be patient with me, and I will pay you back!’ But he refused and went out and had him put in prison until he should repay the debt.

When the other fellow-servants saw what had happened, they were saddened  and told their master the whole incident.

Then his master called him in."You wicked servant!’ he said. ‘Didn’t I cancel all that debt when you begged me to do so?  Should you not have learnt from me to  take pity on your fellow-servant as I your master, took pity on you?  And his master in anger handed him over to the Jailer till he should repay the whole debt. This is how my Heavenly Father will treat you unless you forgive from your heart.” Jesus.  Matthew 18.

Deliquescence of hurt

Every relationship is on some level abusive.

Whether it is mental, emotional, psychological, spiritual or physical
We have a natural aptitude for hurting others and also for being hurt.

Unmerited unconditional forgiveness is the deliquescence of hurt.

A forgiving heart is like a vessel where the shards of hurt
distil into a  transforming new wine of healing.

The reason a parent will always love their child
is because a parent will always forgive their child.

The picture is of Charles Bronson.  p o h m.

Whet's in a Name.

The Superhuman

All that can happen to a human being in this world

Is happening moment by moment

Someone is being born someone is dying
Someone is being rescued someone is being killed
Someone is being comforted someone is being tortured
Someone is falling in love someone is learning to hate
Someone is full of joy someone is full of dread
Someone is in tranquil peace someone is in anguished fear
Someone is losing hope someone is finding a new beginning

This is the inherent sentience we cannot sense
This is the graffitied vision we cannot see
This is the background noise we cannot hear

In this moment is the feeling in the air
The essence of this moment is the Superhuman.

Hunky - Dory.

After the War in Iraq and it's ongoing aftermath.
The continuing embroilment in Afghanistan.
The Banking crisis caused by bankers pursuing 'paper profit' to boost their bonuses.
The billions of pounds of British people's money handed away to stop the banks going under.
Then as an encore the MP's expenses scandal.

We have this solution presented to us - 'Hammer the Poor'

It seems if the Oligarchs controlling the conglomerates with billions floating around the world economy are made aware that Mrs Smith in Glasgow has just turned her heating off
so that she can buy food - then everything will be hunky-dory.

I posted this on the 13th of May 2010, as people are now choosing between heating and eating I think it has become more current.

I've also changed my mind about the Banks. I now think what happened to the Banks
was an intentionally planned and deliberate act.

The rich are richer the poor are poorer and we are all much more controllable.

Learning things I do not know

I keep on learning things I do not know.
Every day I  learn new things I do not know.
Not that I understand them I just add them to the things I do not know.